Easing up, but keeping busy

My New Year's Resolution is to not stress myself out so much. (We'll see if I succeed :/ )

With stress comes bad sleeping habits and even diseases like insomnia or sleep walking. And if your sleeping is affected, your diet becomes affected as well. You pick whatever you think will feel you up faster: i.e. greasy veggie burgers, cheese pizza, nachos, beans and cheese and french-fry burritos, chips, soda, a caffeine addiction increases, you drink less water and migraines break down your brains doors.

Well, I'm ready to relax myself. I mean, I don't need to be doing two back to back shows, and worrying to keep my grades up, and doing 14 different acting, dancing, or voice and diction workshops a day, or stage managing and being in various clubs at my campus.

I'm just stressing myself out too much and it isn't healthy. So, this semester, I'm focusing on school, no shows, (because second semester is only Junior and Senior produced shows) and a mock-trial group as well as delving into research for my dream character.

If you really must know, it's Desdemona from William Shakespeare's Othello.  In June, my conservatory is having open auditions. About three hundred people are estimated to audition. I don't care. I want Desdemona. I am Desdemona. (Not literally, but in a very much theatrical character sense!) 


I don't know what the connection is, but I just revere this woman that Mr. Billy Shakes' wrote about so long ago. She's so strong, but so fragile and naive. I can't help but connect to every word she says and every emotion that could possibly come out at any breath. It's so hard to explain.... It's like.....I don't even know. 


I just would have the absolute most splendid time working on all the layering and connecting it would require to be Desdemona. 


I just.....I just find it wonderful.


Well that's my huge goal for this year (fall).


But my lifetime goal is just to be healthier and do what I can balance. I know it sounds like "this gizratch is complaining about all these things when I do this, this, this, this, this, this, and this."


But it's not. I'm just saying I want to be healthier. I feel better when I'm eating fruits and vegetables throughout the day and then have a killer dance workout and then treat myself to some strawberry ice cream.
I'm not dieting though. Diets do not work. They just don't. Making healthier choices is very, very, very different from dieting. I'm not obsessed with losing weight  or being a fitness freak.
If I want a burrito the size of Chewbacca and a Coca~Cola the size of a space ship, I'm going to partake in the poppycosh. I'm not going to deprive myself, just choose an apple over pie (not a fan of pie, plus egg issue) Or add veggies to my dinner rather than just a bowl of pasta.
You know what I mean?

Okay, now I'm rambling....

So, tell me your thoughts, comments, profanities, fears, resolutions, etc.